♥ Thursday, August 14, 2008♥
MY LIFE & LEARNINGS.
Last night, my dad had a talk with my mom.He said we used to have a plot of land ( bungalow )and ended up with a mansionette now.Again, he talked about his regrets & wished for the life few years ago.
All my mother could do was kept quiet.She knew it was all due to his wrongdoings butdidnt talk back to him as she didnt want to create unnessary quarrel.
Yes, in the past. .* I stayed in a huge house ( at least I considered it big ).2 storeys, 6 rooms, 4 toilets, 2 living halls, 1 garden,1 carpark that could take in 7 cars.* I had the choice of which country to go for my birthdays.Most unforgettable destination was Australia as I gotinfected with chicken pox from my sista ~_~Not forgetting the 1st looney tunes in my life was from there (:* Every year end, my family would for sure bring me to overseas for holiday.Each trip lasts us for at least 1 week.I wont forget the endless dirty clothings thatmy maid of 5 years had to wash.Today, if you ask me how many countries Ive visited,my answer is at least 10.Dont expect me to remember all the countrieswhen I was too young when I flied!But I heard that my bro & sis went Hong Kongfor 5 times when they were younger.
I had the life of a princess that everyone envyed.During my primary school days, my closer friends always por meby saying how rich I was lah, my house 12345 big lah.Even when I was still a kid, I never thought poverty is everything.I never bothered to take in those comments asI felt they are no different from me.I'm NOT trying to sound boostful hereor make anyone jealous.
The thing I wish to convey is,I never once took my happiness for granted.
I may be spendthrift at times,I buy this this this and that that that.
If you compare me with other girls,I feel that I'm very alright already.Average costs of my things?Tops, $10 - $15Bottoms, $25 - $30Accessories, $5 - $10Bags, $10 - $20Shoes, $10 - $19.90Foundations, $25 - $40Nails, D.I.YDo all these considered reasonable?
My thinking is,buy a $10 top. . wear it a few times. . if some buttons or threadshappen to rip off. . then throw the top away w/o any heartaches.Rather than. . get a $50 top. . cherish it like mad. . wear it a few times,any faulty after a few wears. . chuck it in the wardrobe cornerbecause your heart aches if you throw it away =.="
Yes, although my stuffs are cheap but I buy a lot of them,then do you think other girls don't buy a lot?Does my dressing look cheap & not worthy to hang out with you?Most of my friends shop at Topshop, F21, Warehouse, blahx3and so?They arent inferior to me at all!I have my way of life, my thinking andI NEVER REGARD PEOPLE WHO OWN BRANDED STUFFSARE OF A BETTER CLASS THAN ME.To me, it's the way one projects itself.So what your tops or shoes are brandedbut it doesnt look expensive on you?To some of you, I may talk or sound like an aunty.But 1 thing that most of you wont do is,you never treasure the things you have.
I never like to follow the crowd, I never get influencehow people around me got pampered by their parents.Most importantly, I respect my friends.I never compare myself with my friends.
Me is me, you are you.
I don't like going around comparing friend A or B is richer.
NONE OF MY BUSINESS.
When ur friends turned up for ur bday celebration for the sake of attending & tried to show you that they care,most of you just love to be so naive to believe they really tookthe time to spend that special day with you.( It definitely happens on many of you; I'm realistic. )
How often someone gets you a birthday present?Even your best/good friend buys you one,does it comes with sincerity?My meaning of sincerity is noticing that person's likingfor a few weeks/months & get it for him/her on the birthday.NOT presenting just any gift andsaying all sorts of sweetie words from ur bitter mouth.I told you I'm realistic! :)It's okay if you come empty-handed but you paid for my meal or smt.I dislike it if someone apologizes for not buying any giftand promised to get one for me anytime soon.It's even worst if you said the above sentence & added on sayingyou dont know what to buy so you will buy it when you know it.I TOTALLY HATE CONTRADICTIONS.I can accept facts, I rather you keep ur craps shutand just spend that birthday gathering together.Dont be a bootlicker to me, tq.
I think Bonkie knows me very well on this topic.All the time, when you are nice to people,NO ONE will appreciate it.I can assure you, NO ONE truly appreciate the bits you had done.I hate people who say sweet stuffs for the sake of saying.You think I will be happy?You think I will feel you are the bestest friend I have?You think words can buy me?I'm sorry, I'm 100% realistic.Don't talk without actions,don't say A to me and mean B the next day.
Money can buy almost everything.During the old times,money could not buy love or friendship.However, this is the new age!You can see many suckers hanging around with a rich dude.You can see many girls throwing their bodies onto wealthy men!You can also see classmates bribing another to complete their work.It turns out that some only respect the rich& look down on the middle or poor families.To me, we are all equal.
Why a guy with an average income cannot marry a rich girl?Does the female has a choice to be rich or poor when she was born?If both of them truly love each other,they are willing to share everything they have.Rich or poor, is just a status.The rich has the ability to hire a maid.But what can be more touching to see a self-cooked mealfrom your wife when your husband gets back home from work?
Before looking down on someone,ask yourself first. .what rights do you have!?If it's because ur family is slightly richer,that is your father's income, not yours.Your father $ not equal to your $because they dont come from your hardwork.You are just a spoiltbrat.It doesnt give you any rights to look down on others.Dont command me to do things for you.If you want, ASK NICELY.Dont take me for granted just because I didnt complain.If you dont have a maid, let me tell you this :I'M NOT YOUR MAID.If you have a maid, let me tell you another thing :SHE NEEDS RESPECT TOO.I do respect my maid;I asked her nicely if I wanted any foods,I never use nasty tone to order her around,I bought her bubbletea whenever I packed home to drink,I took my plate and bowl to the sin after dinnerand cleared any leftover food bits on the plate by myself,we always showed our new things to each other.All these, because she has feelings too.
I'm extremely sensitive.Therefore, I can sense a person's true or fake self.E.g. It's dinner time.You are 50-50 on whether to pack dinnerbecause you are on diet or had an heavy lunch.The next idea you thought of was to give me a callto ask if I wanted to pack dinner.In your position,you think you are being very thoughtful forlending a helping hand in packing dinner for me as well.In my position,I think you are using me to motivate urself to pack dinner for urself.
The thing you should do to make me feel right :you've decided to pack dinner, while you are on the way there,you thought of my hunger and decided to give a call to me.I should not be getting a call from youjust because you want me to decide whether you should eatand you 顺便 buy a pack for me.
Do you know the difference?
I admit I'm troublesome & demanding at times.My reason for being that way is,I want the best for the things I pay.E.g. All of you are deciding where to have dinner.Person 1 suggested place A,I said no. WHY?
I have reasons for my disagreement!If you suggest to go Sakae Sushi,I would say why not go to Sushi Teias it serves better food quality.Pay for a better grade, wrong meh?
E.g. If my meal tastes horrible, I wont eat it.It's not that I'm pampered.My mom taught me not to force things into my mouth.Should food be an enjoyment or a forcement?
E.g. PLANTA magarine for bbq has sold out.I'm not willing to choose another brand.I'm willing to go to the extent of searching another store for it.If it's not urgent to get it,I rather dont buy any for that day.Taste will not be the same if uses other brand!
Even since I lost my one and only best friend,Lim Liwen Sheena,I further realised the importance of the word,"BEST".It can only be ONE PERSON.
It's not knowing a person for just a dayand conclude that person is your best friend.Have you found out his/her flaws?What if one day you found out & could not accept it?Friendship problem arises, right?!It takes YEARS to nurture a strong friendship."Best friend" is not for you to conclude only.It should not be a one-sided friendshipwhereby you cherish & love her but she doesn't!
All these years after she left my life,I never regard any as my best friend anymore.I only have 1 good friend,I hope she knows I'm treasuring her more.We don't contact often, we rarely go out together,we always pour out our woes to each other,we dont have to sweet talk each other to maintain our f/s,we share the same hobby & breakfast on fridays xDOne thing I like about her,she's true. not that gek gek type.Sometimes she will act thickskin or act blur,but I dont mean that kind of acts lah!I meant, she does things from her heart.I dont wish to sound mushy, but she did some actions that touched me.Wanna know? =x I'll be shy leh : X
One day, weather was burning me till my mood turned bad.When we boarded up the bus,naturally the 1st thing ur friend would do was toadjust the aircon to her side.Instead, she quickly adjusted the aircon to my comfortand asked if it was blowing towards my direction.Too hot already, of cos I could not feel the cold air ma.Then she adjusted again, and I felt nothing again. LOL.After a few mins, she still adjusted it.You see, this is what I called real concern.
There was once she was unhappy with me,( I forgot the reason why ).We settled peacefully after school & it was kinda funny lurhs!Why I dont regard her as my BF?We dont share the same shopping views! hahaha.I'm also wondering if our f/s is strong enough to maintain longer.Ummm. .Back to Sheena, I used to tear each time she appeared infront of me.I saw soo many changes in her & I could not accept it.Ya, during secondary I already predicted her to grow up to be this wayif I didnt control her hard enough.I admit it was 80% of my fault for our f/s to be broken.I didnt treasure her enough,maybe it was partly my fault that she changed totally.Saying all these won't help, won't bring her back to my side.Even if she comes back to me,we will never be the same again.
I never like to have many friendsbecause 9 out of 10 are untrue.说难听一点, 朋友是来li用。
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