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♥ Monday, December 29, 2008♥

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Heyyyy!!






I know my blog is so deaaaad!


I also dont know what Ive been busy with.
My past week holiday seemed to have passed so quickly. .
shopping, eating, mahjong, quarrel, troubles, happiness, reflections. .
so much happened within a week.


1. The shittest - quarrel.

I never thought of starting a quarrel with anyone.
I mean, why should people quarrel?
Aiyayah, I blame it on my friend's bad temper ba.
Anyway, we have stopped contacting. .
Errr....... no, should not phrase it this way.
He has stopped calling me already, for who-the-hell-knows reason!
I had enough of giving in.
When will he learn to treasure?
Byebyebye!
If he reads this by any chance, I want make things known to him,
it was not fun at all.
Stop fooling me.
I didnt say I mind being friends again,
but have you ever regard me as ur friend, even?
If you did, ask yourself AGAIN.




2. The worst - Troubles.


I'm undergoing a stage of self-reflection because it's time I need to treasure someone (anyone).

You see, I ended off my 3 year relationship without feeling much sadness.
Yes, there might be some weird feel as I cannot go to those dining places that I wish to go anytime.
Like now, I'm thinking about Tony Roma cos Im hungry already, then I dont know have to wait till when to have it luhs!
Okay, I was the one who initiated the break, so supposedly it's normal for me to feel that way ma?

I'm a person who is very kan kai about almost everything.
Once I let go, I seldom look back. .because I'm firm of what I want.
I HATE DRAGGING, it's either a yes or no only.

E.g. my 1st point - quarrel.
Dont keep me hanging! If being friends also cannot, say laa!! Not as if this is the first time I got hurt from him. tmdzxzxzxzxzxxzxzxzx.


Okay, back to my point. .
I realised I have not been treasuring people hard enough, mostly guys.

Usually, when I got to know a new guy,
we started off well & thought we could click like forever!
Because of my personality, I'm abled to adapt to one's lifestyle veryveryvery easily.
Then when we got to the closet stage before steady, suddenly I will avoid/lesser contact with the guy.

People just come and go out of my life. It has been too many cycles.

I know, that's life - I cannot possibly keep all my side, dont think of even one.


Looking back, which victims I ever bothered about?


..........

I'm playing a "game" with a friend I got to know not long ago.
We used to chat anything about the sun & moon,
now we chose to stop contacting for a month plus.

Reason?
I change too fast, I dont know if he may be my next victim.
He wants me to think for myself,
what I really want, who I can accept.



Just now, I chatted with a total stranger whom I know from online game ( LOL! ).
[ hellooooo, chat only chat only! ]
I shared my trouble with him, no harms right.
He thinks that 2 persons not contacting each other for a month is not the correct way out.
and also told me, there is nothing wrong with me at all.

He feels that my friend and me should work things out together,
as in still continue contacting each other and whether I will treasure this new friend of mine, it's up to how we develop our friendship.

Agree?


Btw, the stranger is 35 years old. lololols.
Actually I didnt bother to find out 'cos he's like, none of my biz to me at all.
But I asked for his age as I wanted to see the thinkings for different age group (:



Everyone handles matter differently, ya?

If you were me,
will you choose doing self-reflection during the 1 month of tough period alone,
or take the risk to be in contact with ur new friend & let fate decides the outcome?


Both ways has its good & bad points.


For me,
after much much much comparisons,
I hope I can choose to stop the game.
Because I have only myself as guidance, how much can I change?
Dont leave me handling alone if you really wish for the better.


3. Shopping & eating & mahjongs!

These are best leisure for me already!!!


I've been on the winning strike lately. .
is it just a coincidence or fated?


I learnt smt recently :
dress up for my own sake.



When I bother to dress nicer, I feel good about myself.
I dont have to care about any comments,
because my taste is always different from people.


If you compliment me, I'll say,
welcome to my world :D
Otherwise, I'll tell you,
I can't stand your dressing sense either :S



Aiyayah, I crave for Japanese food again.
I need Nihon Mura buffet alr =((((
Sweeeeety amaebi!!!!



Is it really a crave, or am I trying to distract my frustrations away?


Please dont mind my pale face :O

That was how fugly I looked like after work during my attachment days.
And yuppps, this picture shows the closest hair color I'm having now.




I dont know what better alternatives to make myself happier ler.

I online shopped ytd for the sake of spending something.
Will upload my buys on my next post oki.
Expect to see high waisted dress, gold studded belt, glossy leggings & pink leopard dress I got for my cousin (:
Not to leave out, some items that I received via mail :)))
[ Skin79 BB, Pearl Powder, Blush, Vintage Belt. ]




the time is 09:07am now!!!!
i havent been sleeping at all !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Suppose to stay up for report,
but mind has a lot of distractions laaaahs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!






I WANT TO STOP PLAYING THE DAMN FUCKING GAME!
So fucking fuck!





Pssssss.. I'm so attracted to my hair smell xPPPP